Digging Deep

As I've probably mentioned, I've been listening to the all the archives of Jillian Michael's podcasts and she talks a lot about digging deep. Someone elses blog mentioned that recently too and if I had a memory left, I'd link to you. Whoever you are, I get it now.

I've given this a lot of thought and I'm realizing that's what's missing right now and what needs to the next step for me. Physically, mentally, and professionally. I've gotten too comfortable since I got married (oh and gained 60 lbs.) I have pushed myself in the past (lost 100 pounds, graduated from an expensive art school on my own dime etc.) and I don't have any idea why I stopped doing that. I guess settling into marriage is a lot like settling down on the couch at the end of a long day. Once you get comfortable, there's no getting up to work out :)

I'm going to really work on this. Today I applied for an executive level job which I know I can do but it's going to be hard work. Professionally and mentally, that's a really big step and I would LOVE to get an interview.

The physical part is going to be harder. I'm doing my workouts, I just need to dig deeper and find the strength within myself to make the sweat fly. I know that's what it takes because I've done it before. I never worked out less than an hour when I lost 100 pounds but now that's become acceptable to me and I kick and scream about why I can't even lose a pound a week.

It's time I work towards what I want to be. I've been moving backwards on the pay scale and the bathroom scale. Since I'm not having any kids, I might as well break out of my comfort zone and shoot for the moon as far as my career goes. I might have to dress up and be all corporate again but at least then I could afford a some new clothes and a trainer to go with them :)